Abode of Motherly Affection ~ Sri Jahnava

A mother’s love is incomparable in the three worlds. It is complete self abnegation love, so pure and selfless. A mother gives away everything beginning from herself for her child.

All glories to Shri Jahnava Ishvari, who is the source of this material love and affection. Indeed the qualities of motherly affection which we see in this material world is only a semblance of Her pure love.

The foremost quality of any mother is that She must be approachable to the child…in any circumstance, in any situation… with reason or without reason the child should be able to run to the mother and lay their head on her lap. In any situation, the mother is the first person the child wants to run to or remember. Radharani is also our mother, but Her sister who is completely nondifferent from Herself and actually even more merciful and karunamayi is more approachable for all souls. And in truth Yugal Kishor (Radha Krishna) can only be properly appreciated when we have adequately honoured Yugal Murti (Jahnava Nitai). Just like Nitai cares for us like a doting father, Jahnava devi cuddles fallen souls like us in Her blanket of pure motherly affection. Where else will we find such love?!

There is a reason that Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur composed bhavarnave pade mor, where it is lucidly described…while displaying our pitiful condition that Jahnava devi is our only hope to rescued from this deadly ocean of material existence. Such a song has not been written for any other shakti swarupa of any other Lord. Only for Nityananda Shakti. Of course, this is no cause of astonishment. Only Nityananda Shakti could possess the necessary compassion and mercy needed to envelope abominably fallen souls in the cooling shade of Her lotus feet.

ogo sri jahnava devi! e dase koruna
koro’ aji nija-gune, ghucao jantrana

tomar carana-tari koriya asroy
bhavarnava par ha’ba korechi niscoy

tumi nityananda-sakti krsna-bhakti-guru
e dase koroho dana pada-kalpa-taru

(6) Oh most revered Jahnava Devi! Please show mercy to this servant today by virtue of your own good qualities, and kindly relieve all of his afflictions.

(7) By taking the shelter of the boat of Your lotus feet I will certainly be able to cross over this vast ocean of material existence.

(8) You are the very pleasure potency of Lord Nityananda, and you are the spiritual master of devotion to Lord Krsna. Kindly bestow upon this servant the wish-fulfilling desire tree of your lotus feet.

Let us tightly grasp onto these pada kalpataru which are our ultimate shelter in life and death if we want to hop onto the boat of Nitai bhakti! How is this possible? Via Nitai Vayulekhan! Jahnava devi is directly present within Namakshars of Her Praneshwar’s holy name. Indeed how can Nitai Nam Prabhu be complete without His shakti? Just like we get the rare chance to pull on Nitai’s nilambar dhoti while imploring Him to take us as His during Vayulekhan (Nitaipreshthji revealed this), we also become blessed with the extremely extremely rare chance to touch the dust of Jahnava Devi’s Lotus feet and mentally offer this prayer of Thakur Bhaktivinoda to Her. Jahnava Mata is really confidential, but Vayulekhan is so merciful…it freely blesses one with the benediction of Her association! And since we are writing Her Jivana Dhana’s name, which is the most pleasing to Her in the three worlds, She is a lot more likely to rapidly fully give away Her topmost mercy. Joy Jahnava Nitai!

Nitaisevak ganer seva abhilashi,
Nitaisevika dasi

Jahnava Devi Is Eager to Help Us Serve Nitai

🌹Jahnava Mata is always so eager to help us in our attempts to serve Doyal Nitai! If we seek Her mercy before rendering any form of service to Nitai, it is sure to be extraordinary and successful.

🌸 Jahnava Devi will never let us down whenever we are in a Nitai Bhakti dilemma or crisis and desperately need someone to rescue us or show us the path.

🌺Ha Jahnava Thakurani! He Nityananda Priya! You are the ray of light, the everlasting hope which continues to shine through even in the darkest times of my consciousness. How can this be astonishing…after all…You are Nitai Shakti!!! The Divine energy of Nityananda Prabhu. Can only repeat the prayer of Your dearmost servant Kamala Manjari (Bhaktivinoda Thakur) and plead for Your mercy,

tumi nityananda-sakti krsna-bhakti-guru
e dase koroho dana pada-kalpa-taru

kota kota pamarere ko’recho uddhar
tomar carane aj e kangal char

“You are the very pleasure potency of Lord Nityananda, and you are the spiritual master of devotion to Lord Krsna. Kindly bestow upon this servant the wish-fulfilling desire tree of your lotus feet.”

“Thus this most wretched and shameful rogue begs at your feet today, for he sees that you are delivering many other sinners.”

🌷A single day gone by without remembering or singing the names of Nitai’s associates is a day gone to utter waste. After all, who else but Nitai parshad gana and Sri Jahnava Ishvari bestow the madness to execute Nitai’s service to one and all?

🌹Prayer at the lotus feet of Jahnava Mata that She will light up the intense fire of Nitai prem in our hearts and then allow those flames to consume us fully.

Nitaisevika dasi

Jahnava Mata’s Sacrifice for the Deliverance of Fallen Souls

Just like Nitai is extraordinary among all forms of Godhead, Srimati Jahnava Thakurani is also exceptional among the potencies of the Supreme. Nitaichand is Her life breath. Jahnavi Jivita Patih. She survives only by beholding His lotus feet. One cannot imagine the pain She endures even in a moment of separation from Him.

She fainted in Suryadas Sarakhela’s angan and went into Maha samadhi just by overhearing that Her father had turned Nitai away when He asked for Her hand in marriage (just for sake of pastimes).

Even though She was fully aware that Their reunion is ultimately inevitable, even the thought of being separated from Her Prananath for the time being was intolerable. She was only moments away from taking Her last breath when Nitai was suddenly brought back to the courtyard by Suryadas and Gauridas, and the fragrance of His divine body entered into Her nose. Only the presence of Her Lord could revive Her once again.

When Nitai disappeared the first time, Jahnava Mata’s piteous cries compelled Him to come back. With how much separation must one call to force even the Supreme Lord to reappear?!

This is the same Jahnava Mata who continued to live in this material world even after Nitai’s disappearance just to deliver the fallen souls!!! The one for whom even the thought of being separated from Her Master means death, She willingly endured the excruciating pangs of viraha from Him just to preach for the deliverance of Kaliyuga souls and push Mahaprabhu’s Sankirtan Movement forward. We owe so much to Jahnava Devi. After all, as Bhaktivinoda Thakur says, She is Krishna bhakti Guru.

Jahnava Ishvari was the one who took charge, on the order of Nityananda Prabhu, to protect the Gaudiya teachings and guide all the Vaishnavas. This is the greatest expression of Her benevolence and mercy. No other Shakti of the Supreme Lord ever undertook such a grave responsibility, or shall I say penance. The reason is that the waves of vipralamba bhava are too violent to overcome. Even Gadadhar Pandit, who is Radharani, disappeared shortly after Gauranga’s disappearance.

Vishnupriya Devi Herself, although an ocean of mercy, would barely ever give darshan. She would always stay in Her inner quarters and meditate on the lotus feet of Prabhu Vishwambhar, while chanting the holy names. Due to the unbearable pain of separation from Gauranga Mahaprabhu, She was not in the state to give audience to anyone.

Jahnava devi remained even after many of the Gaurparshadas had disappeared. She drank only milk and took nothing else. Srinivas, Narottam and Shyamananda Thakur were the ones who were to distribute the mercy of the six Goswamis. She stayed back to personally guide Them. It was by Her mercy that Nitai Gaur and all Their associates reappeared in the Kheturi Kirtan.

Jahnava Mata’s role and contribution to Gauranga Mahaprabhu’s movement is of topmost significance and definitely revolutionary. Nityananda Shakti ki jay!

Nitaisevak ganer seva abhilashi,
Nitaisevika dasi

Always Call Out to Jahnava Devi

🌸 Whenever there is some Nitai bhakti dilemma or crisis, immediately call out to Jahnava Devi! You can place all your faith in Her without a single speck of doubt that She will immediately come to your aid without any consideration of time and circumstances.
Even when the matter is absolutely hopeless and there seems to be no way left, you will be astonished how Jahnava Mata miraculously resolves the issue immediately. She is like the mother who comes running after the child just by receiving a small hint that her child is in trouble.

One who sincerely prays to Jahnava Devi never falls weak in Nitai bhakti! Maya’s attacks become only a myth.

We have no qualities. We have no qualifications. We are being tormented, tortured and harassed by the illusory energy Maya at every moment. There is no limit or boundaries to our miseries, nor are there any words sufficient to describe our pitiable condition. Our personal strength is exhausted and efforts to overcome this misery have failed. We want to come out of Maya and engage in spiritual activities, but we are strongly bound. One thing is for sure, with our own efforts it is impossible to transcend. What then is our hope to cross this ocean of material nescience?

Ogo Sri Jahnava Devi
E dase karuna
Koro aji nija gune ghuchao jontrona

Jahnava Devi, Sri Nityananda Shakti and the mother of bhakti, She is our only hope! But wait, why should She bestow Her mercy upon us? What qualification do we have – nothing. Koro aji nija gune, She does not wait to see our qualifications…She delivers us on the strength of Her own qualities. We are adham but She is maha uttam, and Her divine qualities and compassion very strongly overpower our fallen-ness. Our fallen nature stands nowhere in competition with Her compassion. Ghuchao jontrona, only She is capable of mitigating our pain and miseries. She relieves us from our painful condition without any cause. Bhaktivinoda Thakura always begs Her shelter.

She is Nitai’s mercy, love, compassion and all His qualities personified. Who can surpass Her level of bestowing mercy.

Joy Jahnava Devi!

🌷Prayer at the lotus feet of Jahnava Mata that She will light up the intense fire of Nitai prem in our hearts and then allow those flames to consume us fully.

Glories of Vrindavan Das Thakur

🌷 All glories to the Vyasa of Gauranga lila – the topmost pastimes of the Supreme Personality of Godhead. Lord Nityananda Prabhu is the treasurer of Gaur Tattva, which is the most rare and hidden of all, and He first allowed this Ganga of Gaur lila to flow in this universe through the pen of Vrindavan das Thakur! Srila Krishna das Kaviraj Goswami glorifies Vrindavan das Thakur as follows in Caitanya Charitamrita,

bhāgavate kṛṣṇa-līlā varṇilā vedavyāsa
caitanya-līlāte vyāsa — vṛndāvana dāsa

Śrīla Vyāsadeva described the pastimes of Kṛṣṇa in Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam. The Vyāsa of the pastimes of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu was Vṛndāvana dāsa.

Gaurangera madhur lila janra karne praveshila
hridaya nirmala bhelo taar

Anyone who hears Gaur lila, their hearts automatically start melting in prema. This Gaur lila was first revealed to the world by Vrindavan das Thakur on the order of Lord Nityananda.

🌷 The most attractive quality of Vrindavan das Thakur is that He sees every single pastime of Gauranga Raya only in connection to Nitaichandra! He prays to be present in the pastimes of Gaurhari where His Master Nitai is also present serving. Even while describing Gauranga’s glories, He dives deep to acknowledge that all this is coming only from the ultimate source of all Gaur tattva: Nitai. And He doesn’t just stop there, He then glorifies Nitai as the topmost glorifier of Gaur’s glories. Vrindavan das Thakur is the highest example of what it means to worship Gaur via the mercy of Nitai! He is the staunchest Nitai Premi who proves all the accusations of Nitaibhakts not worshipping or loving Gaur as nothing but horrendous falsities. Vrindavan das Thakur shows by His own unparalleled example of how one can please Gaur to the greatest extent and be the dearest to Nitai by having one-pointed, mad attachment for Nitai!!!

Indeed He shows by His own example of always aspiring for Nitai’s service even in Gaura lila…how devoted one should be to the service of their spiritual master even after attaining Krishna. The level of gratitude we should have for Guru Tattva is shown by Vrindavan das Thakur.

🌷 Vrindavan has Nitai’s lotus feet firmly imprinted within His heart. Nitai is always resting there. Since He possesses the wealth of having Nitai’s lotus feet to Himself, He can easily bestow this benediction to others and He does so most happily. At the end of Nityanandashtakam, Vrindavan das Thakur blesses everyone that whoever reads these verses in glorification of Nitaichandra will have Nitai’s lotus feet imprinted within their heart eternally!

🌷 Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur mentioned about Sri Chaitanya Bhagavat that it is pure suddha bhakti grantha. Pure suddha bhakti -completely causeless mercy, 100% unconditional mercy, without any dependence on reason. Just like water of Ganga devi flows from up to down…Chaitanya Bhagavat is just condensed cream of kripa siddhi pouring down. Chaitanya Charitamrita is PhD and often too esoteric even for exalted souls, but Chaitanya Bhagavat makes even the most wretched fools into Maha Bhagavats within no time. Everything is contained within it, nothing is missing. This divine literature is Nitai’s mercy in grantha form. Just like Nitai takes us to Gaur Radha Krishna, Chaitanya Bhagavat makes us qualified to understand mysteries of Chaitanya Charitamrita and other exalted granthas like Govinda Lilamrita.

The flow of mercy increases as we go down, just as the force of water in a waterfall is the greatest at the bottom. Vrindavan Das Thakur was the last disciple of Nityananda Prabhu, so He is undoubtedly the most merciful of Nitai’s associates. His intoxication for Nitai’s pastimes has no beginning or end.

Jay Vrindavan das Thakur!

🌷 Vrindavan das Thakur is always busy serving Nitai in the nitya lila of Nitai’s pastimes. He is writing not only from theoretical knowledge, but from personal experience also. All His descriptions (like Nitai’s beauty before the abhishekh at Raghav Pandit’s house) are inspired from what He is actually seeing. The Ekachakra pastimes in particular, which are explained so extensively in the beginning chapters, are very near to Him because He is personally present in those lilas assisting as Nitai’s sakha.

🌷 Vrindavan das Thakur is so mad to hear Nitai’s glorifications, that He blesses anyone who somehow engages in spreading Nitai’s glories in full abundance. Whoever spreads Nitai’s glories becomes the dearest to Vrindavan das Thakur. Vrindavan das Thakur is present wherever Nitai’s glories are being sung, and because Nitai Gaur are His jaan (like He proclaims at the end of every chapter He writes)…They must also appear where ever Vrindavan das Thakur appears. Just as Hanuman always comes whenever he hears anyone taking Ram’s name or singing His glories and happily sits down to listen, Vrindavan das Thakur- the greatest servant of Nitai, can’t hold himself from coming wherever Nitai’s glories are being propagated. He rejoices in trance, absorbing the nectar of His master’s glories. Actually Vrindavan das Thakur’s Nitaimoy presence, which is the greatest boon for Nitai Bhakti, is what empowers the Nitai Prachaar in the first place.

Without His mercy, it is not possible to glorify Nitaichandra. But Vrindavan das Thakur is such a height of humility that He considers Himself the menial servant of the servant of anyone who has slight faith in Nitai’s lotus feet, even though He Himself is the joyful granter of that rarest Nitai pada padme sraddha! Nitai charane je kore ash, vrindavan taar dasera das!

🌷 Vrindavan das Thakur possesses unlimited strength to distribute Nitai prem. Just by taking His name, Nitai is purchased. We are all eternally in debt to Him, because the ambrosial of Nitai Nam, which is the greatest secret of all secrets to attaining Goloka and Radha Krishna, was revealed by Him. Nitai always wants His pure devotees to be glorified even more than Him, so He illuminated the hidden glories of His own holy name through the lotus mouth of Vrindavan das Thakur! Now to adequately spread Nitai’s name all over the world, we require the blessings and empowerment of Nitai Nam Prakashak Vrindavan das Thakur!

Vrindavana das kripa koro more Prabhu!
Nitaisevika dasi 🙏🙏🙏

Nitai’s Glance Impregnates One with Prema!

nityananda-rupa yena madana samana
dighala nayana bhana prasanna bayana

“Lord Nityananda’s form is glorious like Kamadeva. His eyes and eyebrows are large. His lotus face is cheerful.”


🌷 Oh Providence, what a tremendous assurance and sigh of relief in our distressed and hopeless state to know that our beloved Nityananda Prabhu gives away prema, pure love, to one and all without any considerations simply by glancing at them- regardless of whether they even desire it or not! The divine transmission of empowering mercy via the kripa-kataksh of Nitai is unstoppable by all means.

Das narhari gati Vasu Jahnava’r pati, jare taare prema bilaila! Narahari Thakur guarantees that Nitai gives away prema to anyone and everyone- jare tare!

In Raghava Pandit’s grihamandir, during the tumultuous Kirtan which took place by the influence of Nitai’s mercy, devotees became overly inundated with prema simply due to Nitai’s maddening glance, to the extent of total self-forgetfulness. They acted just like madmen, unaware of their present condition or surroundings.

Where ever Nitai glanced with His mada ghurnita lochana, His intoxicated lotus eyes appeared to shoot out a deluge of compassion and love, compelling the devotees to uncontrollably sway away in the tides of endless bliss and prema. The moment Nitai glanced at an individual, time seemed to come to a halt for eternity.

They became so lovesick due to being struck by Nitai’s loving glance that they could not even speak or come back to their normal senses for three continuous months!

Some danced like a mad elephant causing the earth to shake, some uprooted trees, some rolled helplessly on the ground, others stood paralysed by prema, while others mumbled a few words like a mad man and could do nothing else. Again others brought down a flood with the tears cascading down their eyes, while some leaped into the air and fell drastically to the ground without any sign of concern.

Some appeared mad on the outside, and others went mad inside! Keho ba mathe mane mane. All this madness simply due to the maddening glance of one mad personality!

Vrindavan das Thakur spends a whole chapter just describing the stupefying influence of Nitai’s enchanting and captivating glance, which makes everyone lose all control of themselves. At the end He confesses however that He is incapable of properly describing the pastimes of all the miraculous transformation which were caused by Nitai’s glance. Even Anantadeva Himself is not adept in doing so with the assistance of His thousands of mouthes! What capability do we have to even imagine the flabbergasting influence of that divine glance?!

This fallen soul’s hope against all hope is that Nitai bestows this same glance on whoever comes before Him, irrespective of even their foolish resistance to accept it! By doing Nitai Vayulekhan, which is the pinnacle of causeless mercy, one day I will certainly be graced with the intoxicating glance of Karunasindhu Nitai Gunamani, thus becoming impregnated with Gaur Krishna prema- this is my only solace in the darkness of material existence.

May Nitai’s kripa kataksh drive us all mad in love for Him, just as He is mad for Gaur Govinda!

Nitaisevak ganer seva abhilashi,
Nitaisevika dasi

Miracle: Nitai Gets Us the House

Nitai! About 2 and half years ago a very big miracle happened to our family which although may seem very materialistic, played a huge role in my life, as it finally opened up my parent’s eyes to see the potency of my Master, Sri Nitai.

I promised to Nitai that I would surely write about it in order to loudly proclaim His glories, and being the fallen wretch I am…I have delayed that promise for a very long time. I am already ashamed before my Nitaichand that although He has done such a humongous favor on this poor soul, by allowing my parents to see His generous nature, out of my lethargy I still shy away from openly glorifying Him. But He is still such a merciful Lord that He doesn’t punish me for this heinous act nor takes His gifts away seeing that I have no value for them, He just goes on giving and giving. Through some arrangement, I have suddenly remembered that old promise now…and therefore will not delay any longer.

This miracle happened during a time when many big and small incidents were taking place, convincing my family members about something I had been telling them for a long time – Nitai is always there for us, looking after every small need and fulfilling even the smallest desires. This particular incident however had a profound effect in convincing them.

3 years ago, as the prices of houses in Toronto were drastically increasing, my parents became more and more eager to secure some land soon. They had sold our previous house and we had moved to a condo because of how difficult it would be for me to travel to my new high school every day. However, despite continuous searching, they had no luck in finding any satisfactory houses. Seeing their anxiety, I thought it was a good time to recommend seeking Nitai’s mercy to them…as the advice would be considered more seriousness and sincerity at the time of need. My mother started offering prayers daily to Nitai and sang His holy name whenever she could. Within 2 days, my dad received a phone call from his real estate agent who had just seen a house on sale and thought it was just what we were looking for. And truly so it was, everyone agreed after seeing it that it was the perfect match. It was a miracle that such a house was even available during this time.

The owner however denied the offer, much to our dismay. At the last moment she started reconsidering of whether or not she really wanted to sell the house. I consoled my mother that whatever Nitai does is for the best and she should not become discouraged.
Soon after, Nitai did another miracle. Just a day later the owner called back to say that she was willing to sell the house for almost a thousand less than the price we had asked. The price my parents had asked for was already lower than original price set down by the owner. Somehow, even after deciding that she wouldn’t sell the house…she called back to give it to us for even less! Our agent was also astonished and kept saying that he has no idea how she had such a change of mind or what caused it, since just a day before she seemed thoroughly determined to not sell the house…and would not budge even when he or her son tried convincing her for hours.

The next two months however were really tough because all the banks kept refusing to give mortgage due to some issues. My father had some joint properties with my cousin, which was turning out to be a problem. It was a really stressful period for my father as he would be running back and forth almost every day, searching for old papers…giving them to the back, then returning to find something else. There was an uncertainty of everything…it seemed like it may not work out at the end. The part which was most distressing for my parents was that if the mortgage could not be arranged during the fixed amount of time, they would lose the 20 thousand down payment and have to pay an extra fine. The only option left now was this last bank, and chances were high that it would be a refusal from them too. Time was running out, and so was all hope.

The conditions in our house deteriorated to the extent that neither my mother or father were eating or sleeping properly, barely talking unless really necessary. And if they did ever speak, it was only about this. Finally only one bank was left to approach, all others had flatly refused. The atmosphere in the house was getting worse and worse. I had never seen my parents so tensed before. Somehow I had a nudge from inside, something conveying to me from within…that this was the moment to push them towards Nitai…it was the right time to showcase Nitai’s mercy.

This was an opportunity to show that when all other options are closed, when you have tried to every single possibility and failed, when no other resort remains, when everything is HOPELESS…at that time the only one who comes to the rescue is our NITYANANDA RAM! This was a time of extreme crisis for my family, however all of a sudden I couldnt help but feel excited. I don’t know why I felt that way, but something was telling me that situations were probably so bad…so that everyone could witness how Nitai turns things around.

This was the best time and opportunity to show my family (who are not so inclined to devotional service) who my Nitai really is, so that no one could ever underestimate my Lord or question His potency ever again. For me, the bigger the crisis, the better…that only means that my Nitai’s miracles will shine even more gloriously. The more you put gold in the fire, the more it shines brightly. So without thinking any further I folded my hands and prayed to the ultimate savior,

“He Nitai, You make me live in the shacks or mansion, I do not care…simply give me a chance to show the whole world Your unimaginable glories! Let me show everyone who is my Lord, what a super hero I have been worshipping all along! Let me frolick in happiness and raise my head in pride when everyone will see what only and only my Nitai is capable of doing! This is the time for my Prabhu to shine effulgently before everyone. Please don’t let go of this chance my Lord, please just show everyone Your potency once and for all so that they never question it again. My ears are hankering to hear everyone shout JOY NITAI after hearing the good news in astonishment of how this is possible.”

Nothing is more pleasing to me then seeing someone’s faith and love increase in Nitai. I am ready to do endure any amount of suffering to see that happen. When someone gets amazed at Nitai’s mercy and starts telling about Nitai’s unbelievably miraculous deeds, my heart feels a tickling sensation and like its swelling up with pride.

My mother soon started doing Nitai Vayulekhan, and took up chanting Nitai’s holy name regularly. Only after the first night of trying it, she told me the next morning that last night she happened to have the soundest sleep she had had in the last two months. For the past two months her sleeping patterns were so disturbed, she was suffering from insomnia and you could clearly see the dark circles around her eyes. I was shocked myself to see her the next morning so fresh and enlivened. Even my father started intently praying to Nitai.

The next day, my father called from work to tell us that the bank had agreed! And moreover it was a better deal than what we could ask for. My mother’s first reaction was to scream “Joy Nitaiiii!!!!!!”

When my father finally spoke to me on the phone, he said.. “Your Nitai has finally done it!” I could hear the relief and jubilation in his voice. Then he said, “Tell Him that we are all very grateful and he has saved me from very great trouble that I cannot thank Him enough for. It was a matter of reputation too. Nitai saved everything at the end.”

For the next few days, my parents took every opportunity to recall how Nitai had worked everything out. At those moments it felt like I couldn’t have felt better. I remembered Srila Gurudev’s words that Nitai does not hesitate in even fulfilling material desires in order to attract one to devotional service and take them to Krishna. He does whatever He can to conquer the heart of fallen souls. I can only hope that His next miracle will be to free me soon and allow me to serve Him fully in His prachar.

Joy Nitai!!!!
Nitaisevika dasi